Never say Never.....

So, here we go again for the 3rd go round in attempting IVF. Last time we did IVF we both felt pretty confident in knowing that the first time had given us Lexi and we fell in the age group that gives us a 70% chance of it working.We can look back and say, although, it was painful it just wasn't the right timing for us.

This time around, I am not sure how I feel. I don't feel over confident but I am praying for God to give me strength with every shot/appointment/procedure/phone call and that we can have victory at the end of this. Lexi is a little bit older this time around and she has been asking for a baby sister since my sister had Kayci, just starting to notice and wonder why she doesn't have siblings like her cousins and kids at school? The procedure is kind of a hard thing to explain to a 4 year old but after praying about it we felt like we should include her on this as much as her little mind can understand. She prays every night for mommy to feel better and get a baby in her tummy. She also holds my hand while we do the shots and makes sure I'm okay when we are done. I think in including her in all this we can show her no matter what the outcome if mommy does get a baby in her tummy or if mommy doesn't get a baby in her tummy, we always trust in the Lord for the answer. As she gets older she will of course understand more but she definitely likes being in the mix of things.

We started my shots last Friday and things have been going well other than the Menopur shot, I will be celebrating the last day of that stinking shot! It does help keep me more in control of my feelings with Lexi holding my hand telling me it will be okay...cutest thing ever. :) We all three join hands and Brad and Lexi pray over me before we do the shots. Lexi asked me the other night when I put her to bed when the baby was going to get in my belly so it could grow and then come out and play with her. Ha! I know her little world is going to change if things go as we hope and I think she will be a great big sister. My first appointment to check my follicles and estradial was Tuesday and everything checked out good. Tomorrow is my next appointment and we should find out more when our Egg Retrieval date might be next week. Seems crazy how long we have talked about doing this again and now it's here and everything is going so fast!

We are thankful for all the prayers and support of our family and friends and want to include you in our journey for another baby. :)